Thursday, August 18, 2005 Y
phew! 2 common tests and 1 presentation are done. haiz... ... comfirm flunk my TXP test. why.. all becos of HER!!!
wah piang.. make mi damn pissed off! i copied the notes word for word, i dun mind lending it to u and i dun expect u to return it to mi the following day. BUT, at least u return it to mi lah. i've lend u for 1 wk ok! & i need to study too. i made the effort to copy the notes, but becos of u, i can't study the notes tt i've lent u for my common test.
u promised mi tt u'll come to sch and pass it to mi, and
I TRUSTED U! but i regreted. i'm utterly disappointed. felt betrayed. sms u, no reply. call u, no ans. call ur hse, not at hme.. u even told ur guardian tt u went to sch! and u even
rejected my calls too!!! shit u lah.. wat a selfish & irresponsible great liar u r! takin mi for granted?.. u r spoiling our friendship wif ur very own hand.. well dun bother to ask for notes frm mi again.
hello! it's no big deal being dumped by ur bf. it's not the end of the world and the clouds won't fall frm the sky. why do u keep telling ppl 'hey, we've separated' , 'hey, we've separated' , ' hey, we've separated'. muz u announce to everyone.. it's so irritating. we knoe u'r upset, but how can u get over it if u kept thinking abt it. and u kept saying tt u wanna work hard, pass all ur tests, have fantastic results for the sake of him... but u didn't even bother to come to sch! u juz have to take a few minutes to walk to sch leh! den u starts drowning us wif ur worries, i dunno tis chapter, i dunno tt chapter... den u will starts calling us to give u tuition.
where on earth did u come frm.. how can u be so selfish.. u can jolly well stay at hme and hire a private tutor to teach u. we r not ur private tutors. if u wanna stay at hme dreaming abt him and wanna have gd results at the same time, u can forget abt it. ok, if u come for lessons but still can't understand, we dun mind giving u tuition like we did last time. but.. .. u dun wanna come and u expect us to spend our precious time teaching u.. dun u think it's very unfair to us?
finally! i broke down ytd. in the living room, infront of my computer. it was after ur msg ' wah lau.. u very wat sia.. ' dunno y.. suddenly i felt so helpless + hopeless + frustrated + upset + tired and tears came rolling down my cheek. mb partly becos of wat i've said above, my project, report and presentation. mb tt msg was in a kidding tone, but i juz didn't think of it at tt time. i know i shln't vent my anger on u. but u shl knoe mi well enough.. when is the last time i vented my anger on u? or did i ever? i can't recall.. but for wat i knoe, i seldom vent my anger on my frens.. haiz.. but nw i feel so much better le.
the trip to the Vistior Orchid centre is a memorable one.. well, most of us r busy takin pics of the beautiful orchids rather than listening to wat Dr koh r saying. i would say tt was the best TXP practical so far. more of tis pls.. ..
and I miss you already
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