Sunday, October 12, 2008 Y
sunday again... hope the brand new week would be a good one with the Active Day on Wednesday, meaning those who registered would only need to work for slightly more than half a day then, we can get to loosen up our tense muscles on the event, and hopefully get to sneak off earlier :p
okay.. back to uni stuff.
yl, sorry for not informing you earlier.had a quarrel with mom last week.. it always happen whenever we talk about it. mom started the conversation just because of a drama series which shows the female lead being chase out of the house by the landlord for not being able to pay the rental.
damn suay.. why did it happen right after i reach home not long ago.. and i'm so dumb to ask that important question at the wrong time!and of cos.. after the debate which lasted for more than half an hour, i lost :'(
cried my heart out in the shower till i don't know it's tears or water running down my cheek. the sadness is beyond words ok.. because apart for not letting me to pursue my degree abroad, which i just need a year to complete the course, i'm not approved of studying locally neither.
ok.. it's understandable for not letting me to study abroad due to many parents' worries for their child's safety in a foreign country. but why not locally? where she still can see me every single day? that's something i couldn't understand.. it's not as if i'm going to commit a crime.
some people who doesn't want to study, were sent abroad by their parents to study against their wish, whereas somebody here wanted to futher study but were stopped by her mother.. biggest joke? there's this chinese phrase which says all parents would hope their daughter to be phoenix and son to be dragon.. so.. should i be happy that i have such a unique mom??
kinda lost after that day. i don't know what to do.. it's like you wanted to move forward but somebody kept pulling you from the back.. get what i mean?
but still, i still did a lot of research online and today there's slight improvement... finally!
yea.. finally she gave way. probably it's because of my perseverance. honestly, i'm kinda scare of starting this topic because i'm scare of ended up with a fight and having the same conclusion of rejection. and i don't know, it just started naturally with us commenting on a topic from the radio.. and the weird thing is, the DJ was not even talking about academic related stuffs.. ha!
whatever it is, after a long persuasion, she finally gave a nod to the local private uni
*phew.. at least i didn't waste my effort and saliva this time :p* yes.. a nod.. though a reluctant one, i'm happy enough. so now i'm left with the financial problem plus admission, if i failed this time, then probably i'll give up.
see how ba....
i don't know if i have the strength to go for it without the support from my beloved..
i'm gonna be fighting alone.. alone with my bare hands.
and I miss you already
3:43 PM
